Thursday, October 16, 2008

Boring Hysteroscopy Update

Someone from Doc Major's office called yesterday to schedule the operation to lop off my polyp. Yeah, I probably should use the real term for that procedure, Polyp-lopectemy? Just kidding, but if it was up to me that's what it would be called. Ok, so I'll be having a hysteroscopy on October 27th. Good times, right?

We'll, I'm totally exhausted for no good reason at all. Aislinn is taking a nap so I better take a nap of my own while I can. To make up for my short and boring post I will leave you with some cute pics of Aislinn. Enjoy!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Freckle's Ugly Cousin... In My Uterus

Yes people, I have a uterine polyp. I went in for my saline sonogram yesterday and it was very obviously there. It's absolutely possible that it was there when I had the FET but Dr. Sunshine doesn't check for polyps in all patients every 6 months like Doc Major (yes, I have a nickname for my new doc... he was a major in the army so there you go). So, it's possible that the polyp ended the pregnancy. Whatever, this whole thing is bullshit. Doc Major doesn't want us to focus on how that may have caused the miscarriage because we can't do anything about that now and we just need to move forward. Argh. So, anyway... we're going to have that lopped off sometime this month. We haven't scheduled it yet. The nurse will call with my doc's schedule and we'll get that done possibly by the end of the month. For now I'm on birth control again to just keep my ovaries quiet and to keep those evil androgens from screwing with my body. The rest of our plan stays the same. Lose weight and exercise! Yes sir!

On a totally unrelated topic, Howie and I just celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary on October 12th. We've known each other for 11 1/2 years. We've had a lot of hard times but we've also had good times. Howie is my best friend and he is a wonderful father. I can't believe it's already been 5 years and I can't wait to see what the future holds. Here's a little video montage of the past 11 1/2 years Howie and I have spent together and hopefully next year at the end of the video Howie and I will be thinner, LOL.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Trying to Pull It All Together

Hi Blogosphere! It's been forever, I should just quit this blogging thing. I'm so inconsistent. I doubt anyone reads anymore but I forgot how nice it was to have an outlet for my thoughts and feelings so I'll try to keep it up.

So, my last post was forever ago. The end of May. Frost defrosted PERFECTLY! And settled in PERFECTLY. Hormones were rising PERFECTLY! Then right after I went in for my last blood test I started bleeding. Not a little, A LOT! I mean, labor like cramping and blood clots literally sliding out of me. It was awful, but when I got my results back from the doctor that day my hormone level had more than doubled. Two hours after the bleeding started it stopped... COMPLETELY! It was odd. It made no sense. That night I felt fine. I went in for another blood test and the level continued to rise. We had an ultrasound and the baby was there and it appeared to have a heartbeat. So, we went on with life as normal again until a week later when the exact same thing happened again. I dropped Aislinn off with my neighbor and went in for an ultrasound. The baby was no longer there. I cried all the way home. It was awful.

It took like a month and a half for my hormone level to go down to 0. I was trying everything to distract myself from what was happening. Shopping, painting, cleaning, re-organizing the house, researching miscarriages and PCOS. Then I got my first period after the miscarriage and it went on for 3 months. How annoying is that? It's hard to stay happy and positive when your body is going through all of this shit. I'm mad, I'm sad, sometimes I'm ready to move on. I have 4 pregnant friends. I am happy for them but it's just hard to watch them all get bigger. We were all going to be pregnant together. Aislinn is the same age as their first kids and our second ones would grow up together too. It's not like I have to have kids when they do, but... whatever. I don't know what my point was.

Howie and I went to see the new fertility doc here in town. I can't keep seeing a doc in VA, that's just silly. So, I'm seeing her friend who just happens to work in the town I live in in CT. Weird. He's nice. I'll have to think of a nickname for him someday. He was shocked to find out that I have had my period for 3 months because usually with PCOS menstrual periods are unlikely evens, as many of you probably know. So, he immediately had them set up a room so that he could give me an ultrasound and he also had them draw some blood to see if I had anemia and some kind of thyroid issue plus a few other things. Who knows. Things inside of me looked good. Woohoo! Later that day I got my blood test results, I'm not anemic but they wanted me to take iron anyway because it's fun to take and it's a damn miracle that I'm not anemic. My thyroid though... well... that is all out of whack. I have a hypothyroid. PCOS + hypothyroidism = fat, tired & infertile. Well, at least we know what's what now. He had me take some progesterone every night for 10 days and I'm taking another thing for the thyroid issue. I am no longer bleeding to death and my energy level is better. My acupuncturist also gave me some Chinese herbs to stop the bleeding and I think that had a lot to do with it too. Tomorrow I'm going in for some acupuncture and I'm also meeting with my nutritionist to discuss what to avoid and what to add to my diet now that we've added hypothyroidism into the mix. I have another appointment with my new doc on Tuesday afternoon. We're going to discuss how the meds are working and do a saline sonogram just to take another peak inside. Yay!

So that's the quick update. I now must return to cleaning this house. It's a crazy mess and Aislinn should be waking up from her nap any moment. Here's a cute pic of Aislinn pumpkin picking this past weekend.