I went in for my postpartum OB/GYN appointment today. Before Dr. Hot Stuff came in the nurse asked me if I had my first period yet and I told her that I didn't know because I had never stopped bleeding since the delivery. I didn't think anything of it because I figured it was normal. When the doctor came in she asked me if the bleeding had stopped as she was opening my file and I said no. She thought that was a bit odd and told me that if it doesn't stop in two more weeks then she'll want me to come in for an ultrasound. Once we started the exam and she saw how heavily I was bleeding she told me that she wanted me to come in for an ultrasound on Monday. So there you go, I'm going in for an ultrasound on Monday. I have barely gone a week without an ultrasound in the past two years, so that's just fine. I just hope that everything is ok. I didn't even ask what could be wrong because I don't want to know until they know what's up. I'm sick of obsessing and worrying about my female functions when I clearly have no control over them. I have a whole weekend before the ultrasound and if I think about it too much or spend all kinds of time on Google I'll just drive myself nuts. Instead I'm going to enjoy the weekend, especially going out for a few drinks with our neighbors tomorrow night. It has been forever since I went out for drinks and I REALLY miss my favorite drinking/infertility buddy, Lesley, in VA. LESLEY!!! I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! A cosmo just isn't a cosmo without her. Oh, and one last note on my appointment with Dr. Hot Stuff. She asked me "And what about birth control?" I replied, "Well, my husband and I discussed it and we weren't really sure it's necessary since I don't actually ovulate." Seriously, why should I waste my money??? She then asked, "So if you happen to get pregnant that's ok?" I kind of laughed, "If I get pregnant that would be a miracle." I highly doubt being pregnant and giving birth has magically jump started my reproductive cycle.
Enough about my uterus and it's dysfunctions. Howie and I have been working on planning a Jewish baby naming for Aislinn. Many of you may be confused about why a couple with a baby with a very Irish name and an Irish mommy are planning a Jewish baby naming. Howie's Jewish and I'm working on my conversion. I was working on it while we were still living in VA but our temple decided to create a big class for a large group of people and I was ahead of them, so I had to wait for the others to catch up. Now we're living in CT and I have to get back on track here. Since I hadn't converted before Aislinn's birth she isn't considered to be Jewish, so she needs to have a mikvah before her baby naming so that she will officially be Jewish. I didn't think I would be able to participate since I am not Jewish yet, but the Cantor who is a woman and performing the ceremony can allow me to dunk Aislinn in the bath under her supervision. So, now I need to get a bathing suit.
Yes, a bathing suit. I don't have one that fits because in the past I wasn't a huge fan of my chubbiness but after being naked and pregnant dripping amniotic fluid and blood in front of everyone I no longer care. I'm over it. Just being pregnant made me feel better about my body. I don't know if I'm going to be laying out in the sun by the pool with the whole housing community this summer, but I don't obsess over my general appearance the way that I used to. I feel good about the way that I look and if I could find the clothes I owned BEFORE I was pregnant I might actually enjoy dressing myself. That's something I haven't enjoyed in years! Oddly enough being comfortable with my weight and my body is actually more incentive for me to eat more healthfully and lose weight. In April I plan to start Mommy & Me Yoga classes and also return to the gym. I can't wait to go back to the gym!!! I'm also looking forward to cooking real meals again someday soon. Now that Aislinn feeding schedule allows for more time in between feedings I have actually been eating breakfast and lunch most of the week and I'm still able to fit in a nap and some light cleaning. In two more weeks I need to find some time in my day for work and school. It will be more difficult than I had originally thought to work from home and take care of Aislinn but I'm sure I'll work it out.